Neurospicy Updates | Neurospicy Black Girl

Just some updates...appreciate your support as always

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Hi, I'm Milani. I'm black, female, and neurodivergent, aka I lost the genetic lottery. The only thing I could do was pull myself up by my bootstraps and live whatever life takes me. If anyone deserves to profit from my trauma, it's me. That's the life of a neuro-spicy black girl. Hey y'all, welcome back to Neuro Spicy Black Girl. It's me, Alani, your resident, tired, overwhelmed, but still very much here, Neuro Spicy Black Girl. So, today is gonna be a shorter, more chill episode, like the title suggests, just some updates on me, the pod, life, and all the messy stuff in between. So, shoutout to the four people that are still listening! First off, things have been busy. Like, not in the, oh, I'm booked and blessed, look at me thriving kind of way. More like, I accidentally took on a little bit of a bigger role in my video editing job, and now my brain is mushed by 4pm. Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful. I'm learning a lot, doing more creative stuff, which is nice, but it definitely means my executive dysfunction is on 10%. The amount of times I've stared at my to-do list lately, closed the tab, and then opened it again like it was gonna magically change. Yeah. And that ties into the next update. As you may have noticed, I kinda fell off with social media marketing for the podcast. It's not that I don't care. I do. I want this community to grow, I want more neurodivergent black folks, more people who just get it to find this space. But man, when the viewership is low, or there's not much engagement, and it's already hard for me to muster the energy to post, it's a recipe for absolutely doing nothing. I'm like, why am I gonna burn my last spoon today making a cute reel when 12 people see it and nobody comments? I don't know, that's kind of grim, but it's real. And on top of that, I'm doing all of this by myself. I'm recording, I'm editing, I'm posting, I'm writing, I'm promoting, plus... I'm living my regular life where I have to, you know, survive in this hellscape of a country. If you are not in the U.S., yeah, you are probably laughing at us, which I'm blaming. But yeah, back to the podcast. My spoons have been running real low. But it's not all bad news. I am trying to take care of myself. It's not easy. The U.S. feels like it's constantly on fire, both literally and metaphorically. The news cycle is brutal. The economy's brutal. Personal life can't be brutal. Emotionally, financially, mentally, it's a lot. So, some days I just let myself rest. No push-it, productivity, no guilt, just exists. And I want to say to the four or five of y'all who are still listening every time I drop an episode, thank you. Seriously. It means more than you know. Sometimes it feels like I'm just talking to the void, but then I see that little download number go up by five, and I'm like, okay, cool. People are still here. Hopefully things will get better soon. Or at least stabilize enough that I can keep pouring into this little corner of the internet without burning out completely. Because I will still be recording episodes. Even if it's slower. Even if it's more whenever I can versus on a set schedule. This space matters to me. Y'all matter to me. I started this because I didn't see enough spaces that could buy being neurodivergent, black, maybe queer, maybe a little weird. Maybe a little socially awkward. All of it. And I still want that. So yeah, that's pretty much it. Just wanted to give a little honest update. Because if I can't be real here, then what's the point? I'll probably be back soon with a new topic. Maybe something fun. Maybe another rant. Who knows? In the meantime, take care of yourself. Rest. Eat something good, watch something silly, or just stare at the ceiling for 20 minutes. No judgment. That's self-care too. Remember, it's okay to be human. Do what's best for you. Again, links to support me are in the description. Alright, love y'all. Talk soon. Hey everyone, I have credits now! Narrow Spicy Black Girl is written, created, produced, and edited by me, Align Weeks. This show is produced at Brick Media Arts. To learn more about this nonprofit arts organization, visit brickmediaarts.org. That is B-R-I-C-M-E-D-I-A-R-T-S dot org.